Thursday, June 29, 2006
Words from the 'real world'
Wow. The past few months have been a whirlwind tour of what ye olde people like to call the 'real world'.
you know that song that goes "i wanna run through the halls of my high school, i wanna scream at the top of my lungs...i just found out theres no such thing as the real world, just a lie you've got to rise above."??
Well i love that song. i always thought it was kind of invigorating, because when we're younger we're always scared of that thing called the 'real world'.
And now?
Its a bastard of a song, because i believed it.
But let me tell you this....
There is such thing as the real world, and you know what? Its not so nice.
There it is. The biggest revelation i've had this year. People can be bastards, bitches, you name it, they exist. And they all emerge in business.
Business is the bastard child of greed, and i'm right in the thick of it.
You wanna know the worst of it? I kinda love it.
i like looking around at the workaholics, and the bitches and go, you know what? I have a life outside of this work, and i love that too. Its like i'm in on a little secret of life that they've missed out on. i feel like, at the moment, i've got the best of both worlds. i'm working, doing a job that majority of the time is actually really fun, and when i go home, i have my friends and family and wonderful boyfriend to spend time with.
anyway, i guess my point is, the real world exists, and its every bit as ugly as they say it is. but you don't have to be a part of the ugly.
i'm in the beauty industry, and let me tell you, its the ugliest of them all. (i AM a little biased, being that i've never been in any other industry and all, but hey, you know what i mean). but i let my CEO deal with that ugliness, and some days i get involved, so that i can learn and grow from the experience. and other days, i'm just the lacky making notes while the CEO fights it out.
but anyway. majority of the time, i love my job. i'm tired at the moment, too much travel and working weekends. but things will slow down after the conference we're in the middle of at the moment, and i'll get my weekends back.
so the real world is ugly. but its fast paced and exciting too. i feel like a year has passed since i started this job. i feel like a week has passed since i started this job.
i have so much to learn. and i'm learning faster than ever before. and scarier - when you have the responsibility of real stuff, not mock uni presentations. as in, not, if i fuck up this presentation, i'll have to work hard in the exam to pass, but more like, if i fuck up this trade show, the business loses $40000 worth of investment and a possible $60000 worth of future business. its scary stuff. and exciting.
anyway, i hope shelly is happy with my update, it might stop her complaining that its been two months since an update....even though its probably more like three....but anyway. hopefully i'll catch up with you all soon - if anybody even reads this.
Love, Peace and smiles from the real world,
Kate.
you know that song that goes "i wanna run through the halls of my high school, i wanna scream at the top of my lungs...i just found out theres no such thing as the real world, just a lie you've got to rise above."??
Well i love that song. i always thought it was kind of invigorating, because when we're younger we're always scared of that thing called the 'real world'.
And now?
Its a bastard of a song, because i believed it.
But let me tell you this....
There is such thing as the real world, and you know what? Its not so nice.
There it is. The biggest revelation i've had this year. People can be bastards, bitches, you name it, they exist. And they all emerge in business.
Business is the bastard child of greed, and i'm right in the thick of it.
You wanna know the worst of it? I kinda love it.
i like looking around at the workaholics, and the bitches and go, you know what? I have a life outside of this work, and i love that too. Its like i'm in on a little secret of life that they've missed out on. i feel like, at the moment, i've got the best of both worlds. i'm working, doing a job that majority of the time is actually really fun, and when i go home, i have my friends and family and wonderful boyfriend to spend time with.
anyway, i guess my point is, the real world exists, and its every bit as ugly as they say it is. but you don't have to be a part of the ugly.
i'm in the beauty industry, and let me tell you, its the ugliest of them all. (i AM a little biased, being that i've never been in any other industry and all, but hey, you know what i mean). but i let my CEO deal with that ugliness, and some days i get involved, so that i can learn and grow from the experience. and other days, i'm just the lacky making notes while the CEO fights it out.
but anyway. majority of the time, i love my job. i'm tired at the moment, too much travel and working weekends. but things will slow down after the conference we're in the middle of at the moment, and i'll get my weekends back.
so the real world is ugly. but its fast paced and exciting too. i feel like a year has passed since i started this job. i feel like a week has passed since i started this job.
i have so much to learn. and i'm learning faster than ever before. and scarier - when you have the responsibility of real stuff, not mock uni presentations. as in, not, if i fuck up this presentation, i'll have to work hard in the exam to pass, but more like, if i fuck up this trade show, the business loses $40000 worth of investment and a possible $60000 worth of future business. its scary stuff. and exciting.
anyway, i hope shelly is happy with my update, it might stop her complaining that its been two months since an update....even though its probably more like three....but anyway. hopefully i'll catch up with you all soon - if anybody even reads this.
Love, Peace and smiles from the real world,
Kate.
Friday, April 07, 2006
Smiling
whoda thunk it huh? me, a workaholic? hehe. thing is, i knew i had it in me to get a little addicted to work, and now i know it. i'm at work heaps. from about a quarter to nine till six or six thirty. so its over nine hours a day. and i absolutely love it. my work is fun, i work with really lovely people. its a little stressful, but hey, that keeps you on your toes!
and my wonderful boy...i miss him alot, he misses me alot. and we appreciate every moment we get together. so its wonderful. what can i say? i'm in love, and i couldn't be happier.
and my wonderful friends. i've been chatting to shelly while i'm driving home from work (on my handsfree phone of course cos i'm legal and all) and its been really good to be able to catch up with her. and i hope i'll get to see everyone else on saturday night at paul's party cos i miss them all. i want to know what everyones up to. i'm a little annoyed at bec though. i felt a little guilty last week because i hadnt spoken to bec in about a week or so. then i thought, no, i'm ALWAYS going to her house to see her, or calling her. i just started a new job, isn't it up to her to call me to see how i'm going? i mean, i had my whole family, boyfriend, and misha call me after my first day wanting to know how it all went! and that was awesome, i felt loved and cared about. yet its been two weeks and bec hasn't called me. i don't know. do i have reason to be annoyed? or am i being selfish? i guess if this were a one off i wouldn't care, but i feel like i'm always making the effort in that friendship. anyway, enough about that.
what else is going on...? nothing really, i go to work, i come home, i go to sleep, i tape all of my favourite shows, and catch up on them on the weekends!! hehe.
seriously, at the moment i feel like everything is falling into place. i'm working, and loving it, i'm with chris, and loving it, and my family and friends are all good except for that one small thing with bec which to be honest with you, i haven't really thought about. so life is wonderful. not all roses and sunshine, but wonderful all the same.
i'm happy. i'm one happy bunny.
Love, Peace and secret smiles,
Kate.
and my wonderful boy...i miss him alot, he misses me alot. and we appreciate every moment we get together. so its wonderful. what can i say? i'm in love, and i couldn't be happier.
and my wonderful friends. i've been chatting to shelly while i'm driving home from work (on my handsfree phone of course cos i'm legal and all) and its been really good to be able to catch up with her. and i hope i'll get to see everyone else on saturday night at paul's party cos i miss them all. i want to know what everyones up to. i'm a little annoyed at bec though. i felt a little guilty last week because i hadnt spoken to bec in about a week or so. then i thought, no, i'm ALWAYS going to her house to see her, or calling her. i just started a new job, isn't it up to her to call me to see how i'm going? i mean, i had my whole family, boyfriend, and misha call me after my first day wanting to know how it all went! and that was awesome, i felt loved and cared about. yet its been two weeks and bec hasn't called me. i don't know. do i have reason to be annoyed? or am i being selfish? i guess if this were a one off i wouldn't care, but i feel like i'm always making the effort in that friendship. anyway, enough about that.
what else is going on...? nothing really, i go to work, i come home, i go to sleep, i tape all of my favourite shows, and catch up on them on the weekends!! hehe.
seriously, at the moment i feel like everything is falling into place. i'm working, and loving it, i'm with chris, and loving it, and my family and friends are all good except for that one small thing with bec which to be honest with you, i haven't really thought about. so life is wonderful. not all roses and sunshine, but wonderful all the same.
i'm happy. i'm one happy bunny.
Love, Peace and secret smiles,
Kate.
Sunday, April 02, 2006
Everything Changes
wow. first week over. i've been working for a whole week and it feels like a few hours, seriously. its not hard work, but its the learning. i have to learn all about the products so that no matter what question a customer asks me, i can answer it. but i also have to learn all about how an office works too, how the people work, what all of their roles are, what my role is...i don't know. its hard. i'm loving it, but its making me stress out majorly too, you know? like what if i'm not doing it right, what if i get to the end of my three month probationary period and they go, nah, we don't like you...?
i guess its not just that either. everythings changing. and it has to, i know, i just wish it wouldn't all change at once, you know? with chris living so far away now, and working too...its like, before, we had the same friends...i don't know, its like now, theres this huge part of our lives that the other isn't a part of, and thats hard. we spend 45 hours a week doing something the other can't really understand because we're not there. i can't understand the medical mumbo-jumbo or how hard it is when a patient dies overnight when you're not there. but he can't understand the stress caused by having the ceo working two offices down, expecting things from you that you don't know how to do. and yet, if i were truly honest, blatantly honest, things have probably never been better between us. so how does that work? are we just not facing something, or does it really not faze us? i don't know what to think. i miss him all the time. he was here all day saturday, we went out for dinner with his family on saturday night, he stayed, and he only left this morning. so i was with him for like, 24 hours straight. and yet, the second he turned his back to leave, i missed him. so what is wrong with me?? and don't say, you're in love, because i know that bit. its just...i feel clingy now, and i hate it!! i guess i'm just going through so much change at the moment i'm clinging on to him because he makes it all feel okay. and when i'm with him, i know we're going to be okay. but when i'm not with him, i wonder what he's doing, who he's with...is there another eliza out there trying to win him over....
there it is. thats what i'm scared of....
i knew it would come out, if i just kept typing.
i'm scared to death of losing him.
but why? i mean, i know why i'm scared of losing him, because i love him. but why would i think i'm going to lose him? that there was even a chance of that? maybe because everything else is changing so fast...too fast...
when you're in love, you're vulnerable, and thats fucking scary. its the scariest thing in the world.
Love, Peace and "Everything Changes"
Kate.
i guess its not just that either. everythings changing. and it has to, i know, i just wish it wouldn't all change at once, you know? with chris living so far away now, and working too...its like, before, we had the same friends...i don't know, its like now, theres this huge part of our lives that the other isn't a part of, and thats hard. we spend 45 hours a week doing something the other can't really understand because we're not there. i can't understand the medical mumbo-jumbo or how hard it is when a patient dies overnight when you're not there. but he can't understand the stress caused by having the ceo working two offices down, expecting things from you that you don't know how to do. and yet, if i were truly honest, blatantly honest, things have probably never been better between us. so how does that work? are we just not facing something, or does it really not faze us? i don't know what to think. i miss him all the time. he was here all day saturday, we went out for dinner with his family on saturday night, he stayed, and he only left this morning. so i was with him for like, 24 hours straight. and yet, the second he turned his back to leave, i missed him. so what is wrong with me?? and don't say, you're in love, because i know that bit. its just...i feel clingy now, and i hate it!! i guess i'm just going through so much change at the moment i'm clinging on to him because he makes it all feel okay. and when i'm with him, i know we're going to be okay. but when i'm not with him, i wonder what he's doing, who he's with...is there another eliza out there trying to win him over....
there it is. thats what i'm scared of....
i knew it would come out, if i just kept typing.
i'm scared to death of losing him.
but why? i mean, i know why i'm scared of losing him, because i love him. but why would i think i'm going to lose him? that there was even a chance of that? maybe because everything else is changing so fast...too fast...
when you're in love, you're vulnerable, and thats fucking scary. its the scariest thing in the world.
Love, Peace and "Everything Changes"
Kate.
Thursday, March 23, 2006
To work, or not to work??? TO WORK!!!
I GOT THE JOB I GOT THE JOB I GOT THE JOB!!!
Ok, so i'm a little excited. ok, so a little is an understatement!! I got the job! I am officially (well, at least when i sign on the dotted line) the new Sales and Marketing Co-ordinator of Total Beauty Network!! Yay! I start on Monday. I haven't signed my contract yet but they haven't given it to me yet. And you know whats strange? Its the little things that excite me, like, getting my own desk or my own business cards. Weird huh? My first trade show will be in May, the Melbourne Beauty Expo. Then in June, the Sydney Hair Expo. After that, who knows? I am going to be in major learning mode for the next year probably. i thought of writing three months but i'll still be learning then, then i thought six months but there'll still be stuff i don't know then! so maybe a year till i know exactly what i'm doing! in the meantime, i have to go and buy another suit (i'm out of pocket before i even begin!) cos i need something to wear to my first week! and just get other things in order i guess, you know, getting the things i needed to buy but couldn't cos i didn't want to use up all my money before there was prospects of earning more!
so this is the beginnings of Kate's career in marketing. and kind of events management too. it hasn't fully sunk in yet. the team there seem really nice, and like the ideal people to learn from. i mean, they don't have a whole lot of time cos they're always running around like mad hatters but i think if it was a slow paced job i'd get bored shitless. i wonder if i can say shitless on here without being bleeped out. anyway, a fast job means fast learning, so thats good.
alright, i have to go and enjoy my last few days off now before the full time work begins for the rest of my life! wow, my next holiday will be a paid one - strange thought!
Love, Peace and new beginnings,
Kate.
Ok, so i'm a little excited. ok, so a little is an understatement!! I got the job! I am officially (well, at least when i sign on the dotted line) the new Sales and Marketing Co-ordinator of Total Beauty Network!! Yay! I start on Monday. I haven't signed my contract yet but they haven't given it to me yet. And you know whats strange? Its the little things that excite me, like, getting my own desk or my own business cards. Weird huh? My first trade show will be in May, the Melbourne Beauty Expo. Then in June, the Sydney Hair Expo. After that, who knows? I am going to be in major learning mode for the next year probably. i thought of writing three months but i'll still be learning then, then i thought six months but there'll still be stuff i don't know then! so maybe a year till i know exactly what i'm doing! in the meantime, i have to go and buy another suit (i'm out of pocket before i even begin!) cos i need something to wear to my first week! and just get other things in order i guess, you know, getting the things i needed to buy but couldn't cos i didn't want to use up all my money before there was prospects of earning more!
so this is the beginnings of Kate's career in marketing. and kind of events management too. it hasn't fully sunk in yet. the team there seem really nice, and like the ideal people to learn from. i mean, they don't have a whole lot of time cos they're always running around like mad hatters but i think if it was a slow paced job i'd get bored shitless. i wonder if i can say shitless on here without being bleeped out. anyway, a fast job means fast learning, so thats good.
alright, i have to go and enjoy my last few days off now before the full time work begins for the rest of my life! wow, my next holiday will be a paid one - strange thought!
Love, Peace and new beginnings,
Kate.
Monday, March 20, 2006
In Love...and loving it
Love is a many splendid thing, Love lifts us up where we belong, All you need is love.
Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I am in love. I have been for some three and a half years now. Totally, completely, helplessly, sometimes unwillingly!! He is a beautiful man. A loving, caring, intelligent, stubborn, beautiful man. And he loves me. Sometimes the feeling is so wonderful I feel like flying across all the rooftops, singing. But you know the really really annoying thing? Even when he hurts me, I love him. Even when I'm mad at him, I love him. Even when there is nobody more infuriating on the planet, I love him, which I might add, just makes him even more infuriating. Even when I'm indifferent, I love him. And there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. I want to spend the rest of my life showing him how much I love him. I want to get married, have kids, the white picket fence, you name it, I want it with him. In time, of course. Not now, but in time. And I hope we have all the time in the world for those things. And the really wonderful thing is that he wants it all too. He loves me just as much as I love him. I don't know why...I don't see in me what he sees in me, but I don't have to. So long as he does. And it is so exciting. Being with somebody who wants to be with you. Knowing you both want the same thing - to be together always.Okay, so I'm a soppy mushy lovey-dovey mess, so shoot me, I'm in love and its wonderful.
Love, Peace and bullet-proof marshmallows,
Kate.